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| HOW true is this II??? |
| 03.30.04 (7:24 am) [edit] |
• Symbol : The Water Bearer
• House : Eleventh House
• Ruling Planet : Saturn / Uranus
• Gemstone : Blue Sapphire
• Element : Air
• Most compatible with : Aquarius, Libra, Gemini
• Can be good with : Aries, Sagittarius, Leo
• A 50-50 chance with : Scorpio, Pisces, Cancer
• Doubtful with : Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn
Aquarius Personality
You seem to live on a different plane altogether - sympathetic, sensitive, friendly, but distant. It is very difficult for you to become very involved with anyone or anything. You are very conscious and value your personal space, this tends to bring about a certain loneliness, although you have a whole lot of friends who hold you in high regard. You tend to be philosophical and have strong intuitive powers. You are an admirer of beauty and everything about you seems soft and gentle. You are unconventional and like to be original, something that results in bizarre and unpredictable behaviour. You like to broaden your horizons of knowledge and are always ready to think beyond the present. Having an analytical mind, you are particularly drawn towards science. You are not easily agitated and are patient and persevering. Aquarians hold strong beliefs and it is not easy to change their minds or opinions. However, in matters of religion, they are not fanatics. They accept the idea of universal brotherhood and are mostly modern in their outlook
You will allow very few people to encroach on your personal space. The lucky ones who you allow intimacy,will however find you fascinating and quite enchanting. Those you fall in love with will most likely share your artistic and intellectual interests. Once in love, you will try to make everything perfect for your partner. You will accommodate, compromise and adapt even if you find that person is not exactly the ideal match you imagined him or her to be. Besides Aquarians, you are best suited to marry those born under Gemini and Libra. Your fondness for travel will find you settling down some place far from where you spent your childhood. You are a home-loving person, having a penchant for cooking and other domestic activities, collecting spices and trying out various recipes are often your pastime pleasures. Your approach to love and marriage is logical and intellectual, loving with your mind, as well as your eyes. You treat children with respect and give due consideration to their views.
If the idea is radical, it must be an Aquarian idea. She seems to be game for anything; the rebel in her makes her unique. She has the guts to take on society; on her own terms. She doesn't care for much small talk; the Aquarian will have lots of acquaintances but hardly any good friends. She's good with style and fashion; trust her to spring an original on you. For an evening out, she will never opt for a sentimental movie; she is likely to enjoy an experimental theatre performance in the dark! Even when she studies, she builds an unconvential environment around herself. The Aquarian girl is not for everyone, but then she doesn't want to be either!
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| 3X@m fever!!! |
| 03.24.04 (8:09 am) [edit] |
well, suddenly feel like writing something in here.. since my last update here.
First and foremost. i could clarify here : my granny is now gone and forever gone..but her spirit, her will-power and principles will be my inheritance. These days i play a crucial roles in becoming a part time companion with my mom. Initially when ah por was here, she was the one who occupied her most of the time but when she 'left' , i have to take over her role. Knowing mom is kind of person who afraid of loneliness, i try my best to stay around with her. even im doing my revision :) just not to make her alone and wondering of those silly thingy. Cut down quite a number of social events like hanging out with friends, yumcha and sushi or even karaoke because im having my final soon and.. i dont feel like leaving my mom alone back here at home~ The same goes to her, she always drag me along to those dinners ( formal) one as she didnt want to leave me alone at home, although i assured her i can manage myself alone. Very contradicting to my mom, i can be a lone ranger, i can survive without anyone beside me or nobody bothers me. :D The only persons who can affect me strongly in my life would be my family members and love one but well, i need to learn to LET GO at times. So life goes on...
*reluctantly*
Another obstacles i need to go thru is my diet. it seems i eat almost everything on earth, which contributed additional 6kg to my weigh. No thanks to stress and upset. I tend to eat more when im under stress and pressure. I just dont know why. I tend to over indulge myself with foods when i'm unhappy. At least when your tummy is full, you feel good and content. But it seems my figure and shape has become an issue to someone :) ok, my classmates esp male. Well, thanks to WD who smsed me , to ask me abt my studies and slowly asking me if i understress cos i seemed to gain flesh :) .. good inDIRECT meaning and terms, but i know his intention meant well, worried that i might not get a bf with my fattiness ( i wonder if this phrase exist in the dictionary) ... ok , we called it as obese :( obesity.. he insisted im flower of the class that i shouldnt have jeopardise the image. I guess that is the joke of the month... I assured myself im alright. that i might not need to undergo and intensive exercise since my mission and task is to excel in my exam. Perhaps after my final, i might consider losing weight drastically and become the next celebrity endorser for MaryFrance Bodyline...
pressure and pressure and tension. I know that few lecturers put high hope on me. to perform well in my final papers but i somehow feel i might disappointed them so badly. :( im useless freak. All i can do now is trying my very best to save the best for the last. I know degree is not everything but i've promised to do my best for myself and granny :) so i must really grant all my wish and promises..
Now im tired+old+stress+fat + sleepy.. in competent in anything and born to be a loser. feel like a shit for a moment .. At this time i ask myself : where is the real ME , the girl who once possessed a strong will power, determinant, smart-ass :P and charming.. Oh.~ i seriously lose my self-identification now.. then... I should re-gain back all that i'd forego.. I shall undergo somekind of metamorphosis, i must live life better, i believe ah por might not be happy to see me this way, TIME will heals... i'will be stronger, powerful and better than ever, por~@ just bless me with the guts and courageous~
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| We will always love you~ R.I.P por por |
| 03.18.04 (1:46 pm) [edit] |
Friday, 18th MARCH,2004
Time: 5.43A.M
After her battle with the ulcers and pains, por por finally 'rest' in peace. The last time i've seen her was 8.00pm something whereby me, mum and brother visited her at the ward.
Ah Por is a strong and tough lady, even the doctor said that if it was another person, he/she might even had 'gone' to which i strongly agree every now and then. The nurse told my mother that my granny died peacefully and she never suffer much, to an extent i only believe partially. Private doctors and nurses are usually good at comforting and being too optimistic. I could remember how my granny's doctor insisted that she was improving.. and getting better and etc. BUT when i visited my grandmother, she cried in pain and when we asked her if she suffered from any sort of pain, she noded her head! So, i could now hereby clarify how PARIA the doctor was~ nothing more then bloody-money sucking of an old faggot with a 'stuck-up' shortie fat assistant. It actually struck my mind that they are the MURDERER of my ah por~ yeah, in a way, they are~ giving false information to the patient's family, and assured everyone of us she was FINE. GETTING better and IMPROVED. giving us a false hope!!. what the fuck is that? She was in the ICU and none of us could stay there to occupy her as STRICTLY no visitors are allowed. COUPLE of minutes will be just fine by them~
I made a vow that i will file in a complain about the nurses and doctors some later days.
Ah Por has been fighting against her illness despite of her old age (84years old). I recalled a lot of things about her, the good and the bad times we had together. The secrets we shared and all the advices she used to inject in my mind. ALL MY remain permanently in my heart, ah por~ and i promise that i will try excel in my exam as what you've always asked me to do : MEI, DUK HOU-DIT SHU LEI... i will~ and i hope i wont dissapoint you anyhow. This is the last thing i could do for you, ah por~ hope when ever look down from HEAVEN, you will bless me with your strong will and enthusiasm..
Ah Por, i really miss you~ did you know, how much i miss the cup of Milo you used to make for me every morning when i was in my primary schools, i miss your yelling voice even at times i tend to be too defensive, i miss 'the song' you used to lullaby me, i miss the jokes we've shared, the advices you always told me, the 'japanese-stories' you used to tell me, your 'hardship' at your young time~ i seriously miss you dearly ah por, why did you left me here when i seriously need you the most? Remembered, you used to occupy me at the old house when papa, kor kor and mummy were not at home. You always be the best companion~ You always there to encourage me, to guide me and to teach me being a strong lady. I'm totally inspired by you. You are the role model of my life, did you know that? But i know , deep down, i wont and never could be as strong and tough like you~ Never!
Por, i know i love you forever but GOD loves you more~ So you are sent to the HEAVEN peacefully. May you rest in peace, por. Although you've promised to witness my wedding day previous years back, i know you are always 'beside' me. I know you are always 'there' with us. I just hope por might start a new life in HEAVEN with grand pa, ENOUGH of suffers here on earth~ i know i'm reluctant to let you go, that i'm selfish as i wanted you to attend my graduation day~ But now, i know you will always up there to watch over me~ i love you very much, por~ and i promise you that i will take care of mummy and family from now onwards. Don't worry anymore~i'm 21 and i'm fit and capable to take care of family now. Apart of you will always 'live' in me!
Rest In PEACE.
love always;
Grand Daughter
MEI
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| May GOD bless por por |
| 03.13.04 (7:49 am) [edit] |
i wonder whether i still have the enthusiasm or mood to write this.. since i aint in the good shape or mood to do so.. but somehow, i just feel like typing all my feelings out since im not good at expressing myself. Reason is my granny admitted to the hospital, she was illed for sometime but today, is the most severe condition, according to my mom~ i was a bit sleepy this morning.. but managed to stick to my mom to bring my granny to hospital. In the car, she was lying motionless and i'd could see how suffering she was~ SERIOUSLY, granny is the strongest lady i ever seen in my life.. She was the widow who raised 5kids by her own, and during the Japanese colony, she struggled hard to save her life despite she was expecting my first uncle ( her son)
From her stories, i came to know that she is a strong and determinant person~ everything she gone thru, she never uttered a word of PAIN or SORROW, in fact, she took it as a life experiences.
HAVE u seen a strong lady like this cried for pain?? if she does, then , she is seriously IN PAIN.. and watching her in suffer doest get us any better. My mood and temper changed tremendously, because i never like to talk or see anyone expect my granny.. she is the only one which i wish to hug, wish to say " NOT TO WORRY~ im always beside you~
She did have lots of things to tell and wishes to be granted, but sadly we never know what it was because she has no strength to mumble even a word~
Granny is now in SPECIAL ward whereby she will be monitored by her DOCTOR, and strictly no visitors are allowed to see her! we could only see her from the transparent glasses opposite her bed. My mom herself cried when she saw my granny motionlessly waving at her, as if asking her to come in. BUT then again, the nurse said she was not allowed to enter the room.. my mom then asked the nurse to pass a message to granny and told her we will be coming back tomorrow morning, and the nurse did as ordered. Upon listening to the nurse, my granny nodded her head. Both my mom and granny was dissapointed~i tried to pretend that i'm alright and waved at granny. YUP, she did saw me and she waved back at me and then she made her sign signifying, asking me to home~ at that moment, i started to feel bad,upset, sorry, sorrow and everything..
I know she wanted us to be there, but we just cant. We feel so dissapointed, all i hope is i can spend more of my time with the remaining time she has~
lots and lots of things which happened, but i know granny can make it thru this time because she is a strong and tough person :) I will pray for her as i seriously hope she can see me graduate and even attend my wedding dinner.
Blodddddddy desmond called me today, according to him, he has somethin wanna talk to me abt SW. well, i told him my granny was admitted to hospital and that im busy and that im in a NO GOOD MOOD, and yet he still say he wanted to spend me lunch on tuesday and talk abt SW stuffs. I told him im not gonna get involve in their thingy but then again he said he seriously need to see me, so i just promised in order to get him off for a moment. BUT fuck it~ i do have my own problems and CAN HE BE JUST CONSIDERATE TO THINK ABT MY FEELING? AND DO I STILL CAN AFFORD TO HELP HIM SINCE MY LIFE IS DAMN MISERABLE. YEA~ JUST BECAUSE THAT IS NOT HIS GRANNY, IT WAS MY GRANNY, DOES THAT MEAN HE COULDNT BE BOTHER. fark~ I SERIOUSLY WONT WANT TO ASSOCIATE MYSELF WITH PEOPLE LIKE THIS. IF TROUBLES ARISE , YING IS THE SOLUTION. BUT WHEN I HAVE PROBS, WHO COME TO ASSIST ME. DAMN` FUCK`.. ONLY IF MY GRANNY GETS BETTER OR ELSE I WONT HELP ANYONE THERE AT THE MOMENT.
Im in serious mood swinging, others than mother and granny, i would throw all my tantrums and temper to anyone, whether intentionally or unintentionally..so i choose to switch off my hp for heaven sake. i dont want to see anyone at the moment. OR else i might driven all my friends to the cliff and murder them with my MEANFUL words.
im off for good~
:I
YING forever
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| HOW true is this??? |
| 03.12.04 (2:13 am) [edit] |
AQUARIUS WOMAN
If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy
or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to
a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her
life, a very strong person indeed.
Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such
person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do.
She is a leader , a real confident type.
She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door
herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time,
and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask
you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks
it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked.
She likes a COOL guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a
chance to show him his own confident. She like to guess her man's reaction,
but at the same time she likes to has many men wanting her. She is a daring
type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same
society. She dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her.
Even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. If she breaks up
with someone , she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and
agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person
again, because she looks at the world positively and has "Faith" in the word
"Love".
She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if
you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She
loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage , her freedom has to be the
same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow.
She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her
win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight
forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you
straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she
say "It's over" be prepare to leave, she is not testing you.
She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will
survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly
take care and look after you, even look after you mean "small loan". Do not
have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she
is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes
that.
You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her
will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she
is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she
likes to tease you. Do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave.
She has many type of jobs because she beliefs what a man can do, I can do.
If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will
just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long
she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a
"Working Woman" then you will be OK.
If she mad, find a shelter for the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will
last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of
"pay Back" time. Most people might think of her as "One of a guy", but in
fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she
really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and
will never bored you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident
and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.
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| HOW true is this??? |
| 03.12.04 (2:11 am) [edit] |
AQUARIUS WOMAN
If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy
or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to
a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her
life, a very strong person indeed.
Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such
person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do.
She is a leader , a real confident type.
She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door
herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time,
and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask
you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks
it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked.
She likes a COOL guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a
chance to show him his own confident. She like to guess her man's reaction,
but at the same time she likes to has many men wanting her. She is a daring
type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same
society. She dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her.
Even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. If she breaks up
with someone , she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and
agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person
again, because she looks at the world positively and has "Faith" in the word
"Love".
She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if
you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She
loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage , her freedom has to be the
same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow.
She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her
win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight
forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you
straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she
say "It's over" be prepare to leave, she is not testing you.
She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will
survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly
take care and look after you, even look after you mean "small loan". Do not
have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she
is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes
that.
You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her
will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she
is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she
likes to tease you. Do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave.
She has many type of jobs because she beliefs what a man can do, I can do.
If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will
just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long
she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a
"Working Woman" then you will be OK.
If she mad, find a shelter for the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will
last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of
"pay Back" time. Most people might think of her as "One of a guy", but in
fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she
really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and
will never bored you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident
and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.
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