i realised something really different abt myself compared to my previous self. I don't know if this is what they called it as a depression or mental illness.. but it seems lately i've changed totally.. Yes, called me a a stuck up bitch but i ain't keen to answer phone calls, even it keeps ringing repeatedly. Well, i tend to be really MEAN if someone press on my luck, and i started to filter all my friends. Those PARASITE friends, i would really love if they keep a distance from me rather than me, the one to detach them in an impolite manner. Yes, i can be real 'mean' too if i need to be one :) so don't try me!! I have few friends trying to introduce some GUY next door to me, when i told them i've just broken off with my bf. Okie, these chaps seems nice but that doesn't mean we could hook up after a hangout or two. Sometimes, they just don't know who i am inside ( not even myself).. but i'm a dog that bites.. so OUCH!!!

Many people might think i'm real stuck up... and actsy, and the list goes on, but they doesn't know besides my darker side, i do have an angelic , or saint side of mine. But that only to my 'real friends' , definately not some friends who constantly took me for granted. For goodness sake, i aint bragging here but i've countless of friends in my life ( include acquintances) but the real and truthful friends, only left a few.. not more than 6heads i  guess.. but could i care less? i don't know. At this point of my life. I try to be strong especially when i don't have any special 'someone' to protect me, cuddle me or offer me the moral support.. but hey!! i'm still struggling to find my other soulmate. However, despite i've already found one few months ago, i just let it slipped through my hand. I never really uphold the romance. Perhaps, i did felt that was the guy's responsibility. But depending on guys/male would mean the relationship is getting no where because they are a naturally-egoistic person.. So, im all alone again.

Fuck up life.. im getting another life. Move on~! cos ying rocks.. i love you .. to all my friends who have been there..

i realised something really different abt myself compared to my previous self. I don't know if this is what they called it as a depression or mental illness.. but it seems lately i've changed totally.. Yes, called me a a stuck up bitch but i ain't keen to answer phone calls, even it keeps ringing repeatedly. Well, i tend to be really MEAN if someone press on my luck, and i started to filter all my friends. Those PARASITE friends, i would really love if they keep a distance from me rather than me, the one to detach them in an impolite manner. Yes, i can be real 'mean' too if i need to be one :) so don't try me!! I have few friends trying to introduce some GUY next door to me, when i told them i've just broken off with my bf. Okie, these chaps seems nice but that doesn't mean we could hook up after a hangout or two. Sometimes, they just don't know who i am inside ( not even myself).. but i'm a dog that bites.. so OUCH!!!

Many people might think i'm real stuck up... and actsy, and the list goes on, but they doesn't know besides my darker side, i do have an angelic , or saint side of mine. But that only to my 'real friends' , definately not some friends who constantly took me for granted. For goodness sake, i aint bragging here but i've countless of friends in my life ( include acquintances) but the real and truthful friends, only left a few.. not more than 6heads i  guess.. but could i care less? i don't know. At this point of my life. I try to be strong especially when i don't have any special 'someone' to protect me, cuddle me or offer me the moral support.. but hey!! i'm still struggling to find my other soulmate. However, despite i've already found one few months ago, i just let it slipped through my hand. I never really uphold the romance. Perhaps, i did felt that was the guy's responsibility. But depending on guys/male would mean the relationship is getting no where because they are a naturally-egoistic person.. So, im all alone again.

Fuck up life.. im getting another life. Move on~! cos ying rocks.. i love you .. to all my friends who have been there..